Day 71 of 365

Feeling so much pain that I just don't have the emotional brainpower to write any poetry. And my epidural isn't until 9/18. Too long.  Right now I'm feeling quite crabby & grouchy. That's all, don't feel like writing much, but wanted to get on here to continue my blog. 

Day 70 of 365

Silly me, I've slacked off on doing this blog. But, I'm so happy I picked it up again tonight. Not going to do a poem, but maybe tomorrow I'll work on a poem for one of CRWROPPS. It's about time. The sooner I get into it, the better. I'll have more confidence and feel better about myself if I submit one or more poems. That's all for tonight. yeah... 

Day 69 of 365

Nah, don't feel like writing a poem tonight. I kinda went a bit ballistic with money today. Spent nearly the whole $50 Liz sent me. No problem. I needed a day like today. Saw the cutest dalmatian ram on Vine St. So adorable, plus I'm not sure how many French Bulldogs. They are just so sweetly adorable. 

These two photos of Sasha. I love them. She's, I think, learning that if she wants food, not to bite me but to lick me. I'll reward that good behavior. I love my sweety-pie so much! Guess that's why I take so many photos of her. She makes a good model, plus I want photos of our life together. 

Day 68 of 365

This isn't there anymore, new people live there.

Prayer to God

Pain, that continues, yet always makes me aware

of the God who helps me to live. He blesses me

every single day in one way or another.

I may experience pain that is quite sharp, like a knife

stabbing me in my thigh, but I am thankful it doesn't 

last long. Once again I can be utterly grateful to God.

There's a request of God, I wish He'd answer,

even if He doesn't take away the pain, I would ask

Him to help me become more active, since I'm 

quite tired of only being in bed all day, every day.

This is not the way, God, that I want to live,

so please hear my prayer to get me out of bed

and become more active? Amen.

Made Sasha's food today; completed the first lesson of the course I'm taking, managed to get on here and do my blog (Yippee!); spent a bit more time on fb, but not on there the whole day. Discovered how much I like oatmeal cold with milk in it. Yummy! Had a bad migraine, but thankfully it didn't last long. I've just been feeling so blah lately - maybe that's why I just can't get out of bed, but I'm really miserable being in bed all the time. Wrote the above poem/prayer. I want to look on Rattle and see if I can find a photo that will help me write a poem. The ones I write on here are okay, but they are not polished. Still, I'm writing poems. 

Day 67 of 365

Kittens, missing them, missing them

God's creatures that I love so much

Want to go back, but hurt and may hurt

for awhile. It's bad this time. 

Why do I hurt God, so I can't go see

the kittens I love?

Help me to feel better, soon, please?

Love the kittens and want to be with them 

again...

I missed last night. Got too involved with fb. I was on more today, but I did accomplish some other things, like the first lesson of the course. I can't believe I got 7 right out of 12. Still, some of them were guesses. It will be great to learn more about photography and be able to take better photos, knowing more technical data. Right now, I'm just point & shoot. Okay, I've been on the computer all dang day. If I hadn't had to stay home to get that call, then I would have gone to the library. I'll go tomorrow for sure. I am going bizonkers not having a book to dive into and keep my mind off being on the computer. I have to buy some Gatorade or some stuff like that. I dislike it. yuck! But if it helps the pain in my thigh, then it will be worth it. Still...yuck!

Oh yeah, and I've been eating like a dang pig. I don't know why. This has been going on for more than a week now. It's really uncomfortable. Oh...have to turn the phone on for a few days, just in case I get a call from Dr. Ching's office for an appointment for an epidural. I knew it would take a month to get an appointment even without him telling me. Until I go to the library, I'll read some of the booklets from Our Daily Bread. They're good. 👍 Yeah...sometimes my life is the 💣! hahahaha!

Day 66 of 365

Don't feel like writing much tonight - I would like to watch a movie - well maybe. I'm going to miss the kitties at the KRAC, but I need to heal before I go back. I'm not sure if it's the muscle or the replaced knee. A number of people on fb had suggestions, but what I'm doing appears to be helping. NOW...if I could just figure out what these large red bumps on my head are. Maybe I'll go to the library tomorrow and go to Urgent Care on Wednesday. At least the bumps aren't getting any bigger, don't itch, aren't draining...etc... Just don't know what they are. Of course, they probably won't know at Urgent Care either and will suggest I go to my doctor...which is what they usually do. 

Day 65 of 365

Sasha certainly is...

Glad I got a photo of these - they were ripped out!

Emailed Dawn and it really wasn't as scary as I thought it would be. I should have known. She is a wonderful person. She even invited me to visit. I'm hoping that whatever is going on with my leg, Dr. Saavedra or other doctors will figure out soon. I've been icing my knee with the herbal ice pack and today I started using the magnets on my knee and quad. I'll see if it helps. I also know I should begin the exercises again. Yeah, yeah, I know - tomorrow's Monday so start. Silly me. I can start any time. 

These bumps on my forehead aren't going away, so I might have to go to Urgent Care to find out what they are. Bites? The just appeared. At least they are not measles. I don't want to wait with this issue to ask Dr. Saavedra. They don't itch, they don't hurt, but they are hard.

Oh my, I went bizonkers on ice cream today. Thankfully, I don't do this too often. I feel like I'm stuffed and weigh a gazillion tons. What a dweeb! 😈😜😛

Gotta be nice to myself tomorrow. OKAY?