Day 32 of 365

Children should be able to play

Children should be with their parents

Children should have toothbrushes, toothpaste,

diapers, sheets, blankets, clothes

They should not have to take care of younger children

since they really don't know how

Children should be in school learning

Children should not be in prison

for being born in a country 

that is being persecuted by someone

who hates certain cultures, ethnicities,

religions, or beliefs

Children who are in these detention centers

will grow up and have ptsd. 

I am so sad for them and their parents.

I wonder how long the miserable monster

of our country will keep both children

and their parents in these prisons and abuse them.

Our countries borders should be open once again; 

it should not allow only ethnicities in.

We should not have a monster leading this country.

I woke up this morning feeling so very horrible about the continuing crisis in Ft. Sills. I feel so very sad about the parents who do not know where their children are. And for the children who miss their parents and siblings. This is a tragic thing for the supposed leader of this country to do and will most likely go down as one of the tragedies like the detention centers for the Japanese. These children and parents have no chance to escape the prisons where they are. Especially the children. What a horrible government we have now; the repugnicans LIE! How can I not dislike the monster who leads this country. He has done everything to destroy as much as he can. So many of my friends are feeling sadness and anger and so do I. I've got to get the energy to go to one of the demonstrations!

Day 31 of 365

Horses are amazing creatures

Ballerinas are very talented

De Gas sure compared

these two in a completely 

amazing

way.

This why I want to keep up with this blog, my poetry is getting better, more consistent. And from every one of these verses I write, I'm getting ideas for other poems, but I will stick to today. I had a very lazy day today - spent too long on fb, but I took some cloud photos that I will post on there, then get right off again to do something else. Today I'm drinking smoothies and eating raw pumpkin seeds – no pasta – which I think is what plugged me up. UGH! My sweet Sasha is sitting by me on my bed. I still have more hair globs to cut off her. They are very bad this year. I don't know how they got this bad, since I've stopped squirting her with the bottle. She is such a good kitty girl. My sweet Sasha!

Day 30 of 365

Brock, Sinatra, Brooklyn

Brock

Long day, quite tired,

yet satisfied and happy to see

the kittens and Dawn, plus

Veronica and Elizabeth.

Good to see Dr. Gonzalez-Franco

and I'm doing much better –

emotionally and physically. 

Brock, what a sweet kitten - runs right up to me and jumps on my lap, so does one of the other kittens, who I can't think of now. Cooked Sasha's (my little sweetie) chicken, but left it out longer than I intended. It's still good and my darlin' was very hungry - of course! 

Day 29 of 365

Anthurium

Hawaiian flowers

before I knew the correct name,

I'd call them little boy flowers.

Even then I liked them – no scent

but unusual blooms. Now they

decorate many places.

Wednesday - I could not get myself going to do what I'd planned. Ya know what? IT'S OKAY! Each day, I'm writing a small poem or some kind of a poem, just to keep in practice. Maybe they will end up in a book, maybe not. They are MY poems. This is my Blog to write down my ups, downs, whatever, and emotions.   

Day 28 of 365

Fun day outside

Spent a bit more than I should have

Who Cares? I had a great time

I connected with people

I pet dogs

I took photos

I'm the only one who cares

I'm the only one who matters

I'm God's Child

and He cares for me.

This blog is working very well. I keep it short, write a poem if I wish, or just put down some 

words that connect me with the day or how I'm feeling. Brushing or combing Sasha every day just a little bit. This way I get her used to the grooming, but I don't hurt her. Stay in TODAY, do not go into the future. That will help me to stay much calmer. 

Day 27 of 365

Pansies with cute faces

Does any other flower 

have this kind of face?

The Passion Flower represents

Christ on the Cross

And many other flowers,

their colors, and type

stand for stories and legends.

There, I wrote a poem. This blog will turn into something. I'm still figuring out what yet, but at the end of a year, I'll have something I can make into a book. That's the purpose of this blog. If I can't blog any other way - like in a journal - this has been one of the most successful ways I've found to do it. Not only do I WANT to do it everyday; it's creative. Thank you Jesus for this inspiration. :)

Day 26 of 365

Photography

Poetry

Reading

It's been one of those lazy days. I started and nearly finished with J.A. Jance Field of Bones. Good book - I just could not get outside to take photos. Tomorrow, I must get up earlier to cancel that doctor's appointment. Thank you God that I'm feeling better! Yeah...  I'm out of milk, almost out of bananas, & pineapple chunks. Can't wait until I get paid - it won't last long. HA! That's all for tonight. 

Day 25 of 365

Just feeling in a kittenish mood

A beautiful grey tabby with green eyes

I don't remember her name,

but she's adorable.

Still, my 13-yr-old now sleeps

with me most nights.

And I love her so very much!

Right Sasha?

Hallelujah! I feel much better today and I wrote a bit of a poem. I went to the Shakespeare reading of The Tempest. It was so much fun and there was such wonderful laughing. I definitely needed to be there. It was really nice to see James and Lynne. What cool friends. 😀😍😜 Doing my best not to ignore any one group of friends. I need to communicate with all my friends, especially the ones I know here in SoCal. Yeah! I'll see how I feel Monday and will cancel the doctor's appointment on Tuesday. 

List of things I need to or want to do this week:

- go for a walk and take some photos

- go to the recycling center

- do some laundry 

Day 24 of 365

The Rooster

The Lion

And a cloudy first day of summer

It's been a very cool spring

So, I wonder what summer will be like?

It's late and I'm tired, but I found some answers on the internet to help me with the gas and some of what might be causing the way I feel. I want to get to the Shakespeare reading tomorrow. Today, the first day of summer was cloudy all day. The bag under my walker broke. I've got another bag under there - whether it will work or not, I dunno. I'll have to figure out where I can get another one. Sasha was begging for food, but I'm ready to fall asleep. I'm off to lala land. 

Day 23 of 365

Little plaid elephant

A nice day in the sun

Took plenty of photos

Alone and with no one

Sometimes I just like being with myself. Then other times, I enjoy being with friends. Saturday, I'll be at the library with Lynne Bronstein and whoever else shows up. We're reading The Tempest, which has got to be one of my favorite Shakespeare plays. I can also go to Trader Joe's to pick up more bananas, a tomato, etc. Maybe I can even take some photos around the area. I just haven't felt like being on fb very much, especially the photo sites. Strange how Larry and Howard post on my Spectrum site, but I've never once seen any of my photos posted on their covers. Oh well. No Biggie! That's why I post more on my Spectrum site - I can make any of my photos cover photos. :D Going back to reading - good book - The Daily Coyote by Shreve Stockton. 

Day 22 of 365

So tired

No energy

No more Facebook tonight.

I skipped last night, since I was so tired by the time I finally remembered. Not sure if I'll go to Kitten Rescue on Friday. Wish I knew why I can't feel better. It's frustrating. I'm off to sleep soon.

Day 21 of 365

Little lizard on the wall

with a friend, who took off

I got a good photo of this little one.

How nice Regina called me tonight. 

Mary doesn't call me very often, neither does Mary Ann or Aurora - but with Aurora I can understand. Both her health and Fred's health isn't very good right now. 

Maybe, just maybe, tomorrow I will get to the library and Trader Joe's – today was a really mixed up day. I told the silly vet that Sasha wouldn't eat that canned food. First time, she did. Next time - NOPE, NO WAY MOMMY! I'll have to look up some homemade diets online. Sasha won't eat that stuff. 

That creep Trenton Tam is really starting to annoy me. A LOT! I have to mention something to Terry Chike about it. It's torture every time I go on Camera Poets. And Howard wouldn't have done anything about it. 

Okay...that's it for tonight. A mixed day of good and not so good. But Sasha's right by me.  

Day 20 of 365

Passion Flower

Christ Jesus

God's Child.

Sasha stated eating today after being too danged fussy. I managed to get some medicine in her - HALLELUJAH! I think she'll really feel better soon, although I have to hear from the vet about the x-rays and the blood tests. I'm praying that nothing serious is going on with my Sweet Baby Sasha. 

Okay – two people who always make me want to feel like they know everything and I know nothing – Nita and Vikki. Oh yeah, I just appeared on earth 5 seconds ago. Maybe when they start doing what they do, I should just walk away. Dunno. It annoys me so danged much! And this time, like a dumdum, I kept trying to tell Nita what was going on. NOPE, she wouldn't listen. SO VERY ANNOYING!

I don't believe I've ever tried to PUSH my views on anyone else...well, maybe I have...but moreso I make suggestions. God, please help me with these people. 

Day 19 of 365

Locks/shadows/rust

Yes, sometimes I feel like this photo. I'm having trouble typing & I'm tired, but I didn't want to skip a day. A short one tonight. 💗💜💗💜💜💗

Day 18 of 365

Don't feel like writing any poetry tonight. I'm just very worried about my sweet Sasha. I love this cat so very much and she keeps getting sick and throws up - this is the 2nd time it's happened. I don't know what's wrong with her, but I'm hoping it's not time to say good-bye. Yet, if it is, God, please let me do it with Grace and Peace. When I wrote what I did last night, I didn't expect to be so concerned about her. Every day I wake up and she's by me I feel blessed. Help me Jesus if it's time for me to say good-bye feel blessed that she's been in my life for so many years. And that we grew together. 

Help me Jesus, please. She fills my life so much. I'll feel empty without her here. I remember the other times when I said good-bye to my cats. The pain was terrible. I'm going to email Dawn and let her know what's going on. That's it for tonight. My sweet, precious, beautiful girl Sasha - I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH!

Day 17 of 365

Cambria

Beautiful sweet Cambria

I love to visit her, 

but I'd also like her to be my next

furkid. She's so calm or so it seems, 

and she's an older cat.

Yet I want Sasha to be with me

as long as possible, since I love

her so much. We've grown closer

through the years. I'm happy

I managed to get one of my cats

to be with me more than ten years.

I finally got the clothes folded, the kitchen cleaned a bit, the snot rags washed (caught up), had a good dinner, Sasha ate a bit, and I'm feeling a little better, with a bit more energy. So, all-in-all, it's been quite a good day. Thank you God.

That's all. I want to get ready for bed and continue reading Smoke which I'm finally enjoying. Good book. :)

Day 16 of 365

Crow sits in a tree

Caw! Caw! Caw!

Don't know why

But I love their raucous song 

Fly away corvid

we'll meet another day.

There! I wrote a short poem and that's what I intended this blog to be, but first I had to get in the practice of writing on a (almost) daily basis. I forgot yesterday and that's Okay. Still feeling sick from whatever this is that's affecting me – it's draining me of all my energy. Sasha's here to sit by me

and keep me company. Because of what I'm feeling physically, I'm struggling a bit emotionally, but mostly doing fine. Just want to rest so I can have some energy to get back to the shelter on Friday.  

Day 15 of 365

A Kid

One time in the desert

Oh, how I love animals!

I guess this must have been a couple years ago. Yeah, my one time in the desert. That's back when Marvin Louis Dorsey still spoke to me – he stopped for some reason unknown to me. FORGET IT! I still have the memory of this kid. <3 Today, June 10th, I managed to get to the library and Trader Joe's, then cook Sasha's food. Also picked up some foods that will help me with constipation, plus ordered more stuff from the pharmacy...duh...can't remember the name. Today I quit two of the photo sites on fb. Just getting too overwhelming for me. Also, decided that the best solution to Trenton Tam is to just IGNORE him. That feels good to me. It's keeping me calmer and I won't get in trouble. Slowly, slowly, I'm rearranging and re-doing things in my life. Today was a very good day, yes it was. 〓🐀🐀🐈🐂🐩🐎🐼🐺♋ Oh yeah, think I found a good site to start creating poetry on. I'll give it a shot. If it doesn't work, can't say I didn't make a good attempt. :D

Day 14 of 365

Crow in flight - Los Feliz Blvd (on Friday)

Successes

Sickness

Sasha

I was successful Friday in getting a shot of a flying crow. However, I've been sick for the past few days - don't know where I got this sore throat, upset tummy, cold - whatever it is - I've been battling the past week. Got some much needed sleep today & woke up feeling a bit better. Sasha is right by my side - I just didn't have the energy to go out to Trader Joe's and the library for what I needed. Seems like the first few days of every month I push myself to the limit. How do I figure out a way around that? I also need to stop wasting money where I get things to eat at places where it's expensive and the food isn't really great; i.e.: Taco Bell – DUH! The food was good at Honeybee, but for some reason upset my tummy. If I go to Souplantation, I need to go before 4 pm and get the senior price - DON'T go after 4 pm. Okey dokey. Both wasted my money. Seems I do that every month - that's not only wasteful, it's stressful. Guess, I needed to get some emotional junk out today - it's helping me to feel better emotionally and physically. yeah...  👍😔💜💙💚💛😸🙏 :)

Day 13 of 365

Pots & Peace Cactus

A day in the sun

Enjoyable, Relaxing, Nice...

As much as I like to do things with my friends, this Urban Air Market in Los Feliz was entirely enjoyable. I was able to move at my own speed, and do what I want. I guess that's the one benefit of doing things alone, although it's also fun to do things with friends. My life is socially unbalanced and has been for a very long time. Being with the kittens has given me some emotional release, even if it is a bit physically taxing. I'll feel better next Friday after I recover from this cold. WOAH! The mixture Louis told me about – and I just drank - tastes terrible – but if it works, it will be worth it.

Woke up during last night sweating - my pillow was drenched this morning - and a very bad charley horse woke me up. Fortunately, I was able to work out the muscle knot enough to get back to sleep.  This blogging is helping. yeah...

Day 12 of 365

18 Kittens

Did much work, but hurt

Sasha Kat for me

I was almost in bed, then I realized I forgot to do my blog and my shift report. I'm so tired and still don't feel well. Cancelled going to Pasadena tomorrow. I just need to sit down and rest! I've been going too much. Maybe I'll get some ideas to write more poems. I wonder which of my father poems Kingfisher will pick? They are all quite brutal. Off to do my shift report, then to bed. 

Day 11 of 365

Miracles

Hallelujah

Joyfulness

After so much difficulty going on throughout the first part of this year, I'm ready for some good to start happening. YEAH! Today, found out Alberto doesn't work at the pet store anymore; a lady stopped her car, got out of it and hugged me, and $20 that I thought I lost in Ralphs was found – thanks to the tapes that play – the money got messed up in the register tapes that were being thrown out. YOW! Also, I finished the last book of the 5-part Jane Hawk series, and I loved the ending. Such a good series. And, I also wrote two poems – about my father. Thank you God for this day. I know that I need to realize that you bless me through both bad and good times I'm grateful Jesus loves me.  

A Overdone Day

Day 11 of 365

Garden

Outdoors

Sculpture

That was a nice day, sort of, except I overdid it. STOP! It's gone, can't do anything about it now.  Most things in my life are getting to be okay - yes, I'm still having a bit of trouble, just a teeny, tiny bit, nothing more - crawling from the wreckage. Today, now, it's nice that I don't ALWAYS have to use my walker - yes the pain is there - I can feel it - so I need to learn to pace myself. And, I am learning. God is important in my life, as are my friends I've known for a long time. While the photog friends are nice, I haven't known them as long as my poetry friends. And maybe it's just because I'm coming up on a critical birthday that I'm feeling different. I'm doing my best to work within my limits  while having a good time, relaxing, staying calm, trusting my Savior. Okay, going to try to write some poems about my father before Friday night. I know I can. 👍👐💜💜💜

Poor Coco, keep praying for her. Keep praying for Katherine Norland who will soon need a new roommate. So many people to pray for, God, how can I keep them all in my mind & remember?

Day 10 of 365

Normality

Almost pain-free

Human

This day was like a miracle. I woke up not feeling the miserable pain I have been experiencing. I was able to walk without the walker. WOW! Felt so damn good. Walked around Los Feliz and took photos. Ate at Honeybee - it was good - but a bit expensive and gave me some oggida. Now I'm tired and have a bit of a headache, otherwise I feel okay. I NEED more days like this one! I'm going to the Poetry Critique workshop on Saturday, plus there are other things to do in Pasadena. :)👍👸😏💖💖💖💖💖💖 When I said I needed to get back to some of my friends, I meant it. YEAH...

Day 9 of 365

Breathe

Healthy

Serenity

I know why I added this photo. It's something I'm missing and long for – the closeness I had with female friends in the past. I'm working towards gaining some kind of healthy balance in my life for longer periods - not that life is always like that. I MUST do what I can to stop falling. Yes, I can feel the trauma to both my body and spirit and mind. For right now, just BREATHE, BREATHE, BREATHE will help me through my next five minutes. I have quite a bit to do today - things I need to buy that I'm out of - but I can do it at a leisurely pace and keep me, and my body from getting tired, or getting to the point where I'm in quite a bit of pain. Just as David did, I want to lean on God, the Father, and Christ Jesus, the Son, and the Holy Spirit for my help. I feel good today – I think maybe I'm finally coming out of that bad depression and getting to a point where I am in better spirits. Yeah... 

Day 8 of 365

Soulful

Deep

Incredible

These eyes don't just see the world, they help me see inside this dog's soul. She's beautiful. She helps me feel beautiful. I want to cry because this is the kind of love I desire. I will most likely never find it, but at least I can see it in the animals I love. So many times, I love animals much more than people. God, give me the job of animal caregiver when I come to heaven?

Day 7 of 365 (I skipped Friday - too tired)

Obliterated

Demolished

Trashed

Yes, sometimes I feel like these words describe. Friday was supposed to be a nice relaxing day, but I overdid it and made a few errors. Okay, so I'm human. Yet, I did have a good time at the NSM. Opened my creative "energy" and was able to feel a little less stressed. Actually, it was too late to go to Souplantation, but silly me, once I get something in my mind, it's like being on a one-way track. 

Today, I filled out the DPSS complaint form and mailed it in. YAY! I'm so glad that's out of the way. 

Edited & posted a bunch of photos on fb. That helped, but my throat was also hurting me. Going to take a warm shower and rest in bed again. I'll see how I feel tomorrow & if I'll go to the Urban Open Air Market in Los Feliz. Would sure like to treat myself to something I don't need, but want. It's rare when I do that. yeah... 💗😏😫🙆😿😻 Well, I guess I needed some emojis. :)