Day 6 of 365

What am I feeling?

I dunno

Trying hard to feel okay,

but I don't. Am I allowing

too much to affect me?

So much feels miserable right now. I'm doing my best to have energy to do things, but if I could just stay in bed under the covers – FOREVER – then I think I'd feel okay. NAH...I know that's not true. I feel like such fake - showing the world one face and feeling another way inside me. Things once were so good in my life - I had friends to do things with, I was reasonably happy, I had friends who cared. Maybe I'm mourning the loss of so many caring friends? I dunno... I know I miss my mother, father, my ex-brother, Girl Mike, and many of my older friends. I feel as if I don't have friends like that now. I feel incredibly lonely.  😞💔😏 I am so confused as to how to make friends. sigh...sigh...sigh...

Day 5 of 365

Cool Words when you can't think of any others...

Things

Junk

Stuff

They are not specific, but they take the place of words when your mind goes blank. 

Today was a really weird day. Took so long at the hospital to get the epidural. But, afterwards, I felt much better. I've got to be very careful about not falling anymore, since it's going to do some bad damage to my getting-older body. Need to use the walker more often. 

Day 4 of 365

Squirrel races up a tree

The scent of Star Jasmine enchants me

I bought Pin Cushions to treat myself

A busy day starts

Very busy day, but I'm finally resting in the quiet night. Did my quad stretching exercises, but not the other ones, since I'm just so tired. I cooked Sasha's chicken and bought other things for myself to eat - food I've been craving for sometime. Today is much better and I've made some decisions to help myself in relation to others. Yes, I'm really tired of being hurt by others, although I don't want to cut myself off from people completely. It's a tricky balance. 

3/365

Got out in the sun today

Took photos

A certain person and site

Less important. 

It never fails to happen - whenever something or someone gets so important that it/they take over my life, shortly afterward, it/then cease to have any importance. Amazing. I feel so much better - and even though I yelled at this person, what he said to me was very nasty and hurt like hell. Take my inventory much? 

Dark & twisty

Day 2/365

It's been a very unsettling and difficult week. I returned to the photography site, but I'm not sure why. Maybe if I didn't, the moderator would take it as a sign of nastiness on my part. Whatever... the below photo shows how I felt.

Ups and downs all week

Not sure where I was most of the time

I'm starting to feel better - I think