Day 6 of 365

What am I feeling?

I dunno

Trying hard to feel okay,

but I don't. Am I allowing

too much to affect me?

So much feels miserable right now. I'm doing my best to have energy to do things, but if I could just stay in bed under the covers – FOREVER – then I think I'd feel okay. NAH...I know that's not true. I feel like such fake - showing the world one face and feeling another way inside me. Things once were so good in my life - I had friends to do things with, I was reasonably happy, I had friends who cared. Maybe I'm mourning the loss of so many caring friends? I dunno... I know I miss my mother, father, my ex-brother, Girl Mike, and many of my older friends. I feel as if I don't have friends like that now. I feel incredibly lonely.  😞💔😏 I am so confused as to how to make friends. sigh...sigh...sigh...